Light: I Was Toxic
In Indonesia, Light learned something about himself he never expected.
He could be toxic.
We saw a bit of that side of him during the final post-match interview of RSG Philippines when they were eliminated in MPL PH Season 14. We asked Light what happened in the series, and his answer suprised members of the media: “Basta ako, ginagawa ko yung trabaho ko. Ewan ko na lang sa iba.”
It was bitter, unfiltered — the kind of line that lands heavy in a quiet press room. It wasn’t the polished, cliché answer of a player trying to keep the peace. It was raw frustration, spoken without hesitation. In hindsight, it was also a glimpse of the Indonesia version of Light — the one unafraid to call things out, to push for standards even if it rubbed people the wrong way. To some people, that’s what you would call toxic. And Light admits it.
After that, the RSG PH boys went to different teams around the world. Light found himself reunited with Emman in Indonesia.
“Naging toxic ako sa Indonesia,” he said.
Not the meme kind of toxic, but the kind that simmers in scrims — sharp words when mistakes pile up, frustration when habits don’t match his standards. “If I see something wrong, I speak up,” he says. “I’m committed. I don’t like wasting time. The habits you have outside the game, you carry them inside.”
For Light, the culture shock wasn’t just about the food or the language. It was about people. He was used to a certain way of playing, of practicing, of living inside a boot camp. In Indonesia, those rhythms were different. His instinct was to push — hard. “We didn’t really fight,” he says, “but there was kontra-pelo. We tried to meet halfway.
There were days when the grind stopped, and there was nothing to do. No family to visit. No streets that felt familiar. Just the walls of the boot camp and the boredom pressing in. That’s when he realized something darker — he was becoming dependent on other people to keep him going. “If no one can help me,” he says, “I should be able to help myself.”
Now Light is in Aurora, he’s mindful of his surroundings and his teammates. Not everyone needs to adjust to his needs. He’s learned that he also needs to cater to the needs of his teammates.
It was ironic, we thought. “But don’t you think that as a roamer, you’d be the first person to support your teammates?”
“Oo nga po eh, yun din yung natutuhan ko,” Light told ALL-STAR.
According to Light, that was not how they were brought up in RSG, in which each player, regradless of their roles, were assigned very specific tasks on the map they had to fulfill.
The season ended. He returned to the Philippines — but not as the same player who left. He carried the weight of that self-awareness into Aurora Gaming. The biggest change wasn’t in his mechanics. It was in his mindset. “You can always find a way regardless of the problems you face. Even without a source of motivation, if you can find it within yourself to push yourself, do it.”
That edge didn’t vanish when he came home. It stayed, but it was tempered. In Aurora Gaming today, Light still demands discipline, still values the habits that win games. The difference is in how he carries it — not as a weapon to clash with teammates, but as a tool to hold himself accountable first.
Indonesia had tested him, exposed him, even humbled him. And in that uncomfortable process, Light found the person he wanted to be.
